luminosity; death valley, california
“As long as you look for someone else to validate who you are by seeking their approval, you are setting yourself up for disaster. You have to be whole and complete in yourself. No one can give you that. You have to know who you are - what others say is irrelevant.”
— Nic Sheff
I just wanna say I’m getting the best dick of my life rn
I’ve been led on
To think that we’ve been
Trying for too long.
Every time we drift
We’re forcing what is wrong.
At last that voice is gone.
Please take your time
But you’ve got to know that
I am taking sight.
Oh, you look good
with your patient face and wandering eye
Don’t hold this war inside.
Come back when you can
You left your home
You’re so far from
Everything you know
Your big dream is
Crashing down and out your door.
Wake up and dream once more.
Come back when you can.
I promise you that there is no way that your life would be better with someone who doesn’t want to be in it.
You can’t talk to me? I can’t even fathom opening up to you anymore.
I get out of task, and unfocused. I know that I’m deliberately doing it to myself, but for reasons that are beyond me, I can’t get myself to stop doing it. This hurts me, and the people who support me, and I feel absolutely horrible about it.
“No matter even if you are cold, I like you better than anybody in the world. One time I said that you were my soul. And that still goes. You’re all the things that I see in a sunset when I’m driving in from the country, the things that I like but can’t make poetry of.”
— Sinclair Lewis, Main Street





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